Cleaning up the engine

Working is like taking a totally different path that you've ever walked. Even if you might have previous experience or knowledge of working but taking a turn from your usual life into a working life is a serious change. Why do I say this? Because I'm taking that drastic turn right now. And I bet somewhere out there, are people who agree with me.

I've been taking my new change for about 3 months now. No wonder how good I am being able to accustom myself to different culture or different environment where ever I go, I'm still taking my time. Childish to say this but there are too many good things to be sacrificed once work has started. I'm getting the income to enjoy life. So true! But at a cost too. I'm not fretting. I'm just sharing it out. A lot of people I know are always in desperate to start their working life as fast as possible. My advise is take things slow. Enjoy your current standing because time can never be wind back.

For now, I'll just take things slow. What ever I can handle, I'll take it. Else, KIV. Act spontaneously. I'm just to used to such actions. Planning is not really a forte of mine. It's my parents. I do not want to be too bounded by logical perceptions. This is my new stress-release program.

Am gonna start attending gym somewhere in mid of November. It's time to take things to action and shape up. Things will always turn out better if you tweak with the engine. I'm in lacking of releasing sweat for the moment. Which gym I'm gonna attend? Still undecided. The place with my most demographic preference of course!

I don't wanna know

Was listening to the radio while on my way back and somehow bumped into this song. Used to listen to this every morning while taking the train to college. Enjoy! I miss college times!

Instead of thou

It's midnight. Before midnight, it was dusk. I noticed. I noticed the shape of the clouds during sunset. I noticed I haven't look up into the sky, my best solace, look up into the silver lining of every cloud, for a very long time now. No wonder the economic has been bad. Not the world economy, it's not affected by the up factor but my very own economical feeling and mood. In a spot of emptiness in the middle of the colossal of clouds, the orange-ness and gleaming gold of the sun ray shines right through signifying a provider of hope and direction which says, "Come this way." I did not reach out as I know, and I always do, that the view of the sky now, in midnight, will also says the same. This has been my solace.

I have to admit this. I have been lacking motivation and passion for these past several weeks. I've putting up effort in fifth gear to show a positive and optimistic side. But, as always, I could never muster to it all alone. I need companions. And as the only person aging 22 in the house, I seek companions out there. My brotherhoods and sisterhoods. I nearly forgot my best solace. I'm so unmotivated that I had seek the darker and lonelier path. Among the shadows cast by the walls on both sides of a lonely lane. Tonight, I remember, that there is always a dark friend that has been comforting me for these many years now. It's dark but it still sparkles. The stars scattering randomly made it that way.

I hold a grudge. Against you. Against your kind. I finally realized that I've not let go. Not even after these years. My grudge to sum up itself will hold a history textbook looked shameful. You've outwitted me. For that, I seek surrender. But I let go off my white flag with a taint of mistrust and grudge. I seek to change but I missed. I missed out several trains that would have lead me to a better platform far away. But I was bearing too much of this grudge. I could not blame you. I myself did the same before also. It is as what the old ones say, "What goes around, comes around."

In times of putting up a brave and bold front, I've always putting up a negative on my back. I need someone who would support me else instead of thou.

Cough! Cough! Cough!

Here's an update. And I believe many would be laughing happily reading this phrase:

I'm sick!

Had a flu attack last Thursday night. Was all feverish the whole night (bad sleep due to my concept of fever = unpleasant dreams). Luckily, I only had a half day on Friday. I did got myself some really good medicine after work, which was finally getting my long awaited clothes from ZARA. Hahaha... That was an immediate cure. Though only for temporary. Immediately the day after which I had my steamboat (pictures and videos to be loaded on next post), the cough was incurable. I kept on coughing till the very now. Maybe I need more shopping. ( ^ .^)

I've been listening to this song a lot nowadays.

Cosmopolitan

I'm bored. Too bored. It's gonna spread a mundane toned down mood to everyone who reads my blog nowadays. Not only me though. Have been chatting a lot with Flora on MSN these few days. A lot since God knows when. Anyhow, this post is not to talk about Flora. Not enough time to write all the stuffs on her alone. Haha...

As my boring fingers are typing and shuffling along the cursor, I landed on Cosmopolitan website and was browsing some of the articles there. I found one of it to be "Love Questions Every Guy Ask Himself". And so I thought to myself, among all these questions, which that I asked myself before? Here's the result...

• Does she think I’m funny?

• What's she like in bed?

• Are lulls in the conversation first-date awkwardness or a sign that she has nothing to say?

• Am I really willing to give up on other potentials for her?

• Will my friends like her?

• Will she eventually look as MILF-hot (or troll-like) as her mom does?

• She may work now, but do I make enough money to support her and a family if I need to?

• Can I be happy never having sex with another woman for the rest of...my...life?

So, here's my list of questions that I used (or some maybe still) to think of. Ciao!

What you think!

I've been bitching a lot lately. Yes I know it!

So, that's why this time, this post is dedicated to all you readers out there who know me to bitch on this post!

What to bitch? Of course about the author himself! You can bitch anything you want about me. What you think about the author... Your author wants to change himself a little (not gonna go too much but maybe tiny little). Anyhow, cut things short, leave up the bitching and put anonymous if you want to (though I'll probably know who you are by how you type). Oh! Most importantly, it would be best if you could comment on my PR.

Ciao!

Hari Raya Day II

Today's the second day of the Raya celebration for the Muslim (also the second day of my holiday)! It's really hard to accept the fact that I won't be touching office for another 3 more days! Yay! Holidays are hard to come by once you started working. Believe me. It's that precious! Well, if you are the sorta person who is dedicated and absolutely obssessed with your work like Audrey then going to work is really a no brainer. Anyhow, skip the work topic. I'm on holiday! Should be thinking of other bigger pictures in the world.

Before, I do forget. It's Elizabeth's birthday today! Happy Birthday! Enjoy being ** (I know you'll appreciate the age-censored). Anyhow, I did promise to join ya celebration but was kinda busy! Hehe... Soon ya!

I did realize soemthing regarding this blog of mine. It lacks information! I seemed to be posting a lot of bimbo postings on myself and stuffs that I rarely post up some screwed up wild thoughts of wisdom that I usually did last time. Oh well! Maybe I just love to brag nowadays.

There is a very important information that I just remembered though. I haven't gone shopping yet!!! Due to unforeseen reasons, my shopping-mate (not gonna make her feel guilty by putting her name here but I think most of you know who she is) FFK-ed me yesterday. It's a good enough reason and I accepted her excuse. Anyhow, the point is I still haven't shop yet! Luckily, I was able to fill in the busy-turned-void day yesterday by going with Audrey and Shawn. Phew! Anyhow, shopping-mate said we're gonna shop tomorrow. So, keep my fingers crossed!